as im typing dis entry, tears rolled down to my cheeks.. it really saddens me. why am i in this state? im sick people! im sick to be sick..i just dunoe wat im suffering from right now..i've been havin super high fever since january..den it was ok but now it came back again wif aditional + + +
body temp since last week was 40.5, 40.9 n etc..tonsils? wat does it mean wen u have bleeding tonsil on e right side & some white spots on e left side? i just dunoe wats all tat! im confuse..i've been thinkin n thinkin y must it be me? y must i suffer all dis? y not others? kenape aku? aku boleh dpt surat hijau sak mcm nie! i've been crying n crying all day long..eyes super bengkak.. all this affect my studies..next week's gone be my final exam & now im in dis state.. great! wen it comes to night time i'll shiver like a mad dog! i cant even have a proper sleep.. i'll just have like 30 mins nap den i'll be fresh awake den nap & it continues till morning.. im like a paralyze(pardon me if e spellin's wrong) kid lying in bed only..i cant even get up w/o e help of my sis..she will hold me tite to e washroom n so on..i must hold on to somthing in order 4 me 2 walk properly.. i just dunoe why all this happen to me..i give up! i give up in all dis..i couldnt take anymore of it..im too weak ready..i just feel tat my time is up..i duno..im confuse..i just feel like dying den living in dis kind of state..i menyusahkan everyone! evrything i've kept it in my heart now i've let it out here.